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My Reality


Where am I? I can''t wake up! I pinch myself,   I''ve had enough. Am I still asleep? Why can''t  I  escape from this dream? I might be awake, so it seems. If so why doesn''t anyone hear my screams? Especially in my darkest hours,when  I  witness the most terrible things. Are my eyes open? Because I can''t tell. I hope I''m asleep,I''m scared as hell! I slap myself, but  I'm still here! Have I just lived my most  recent fears? Another death, I can''t take
anymore. This has to be a dream, my tears cover the floor.Wake me now! Wake me quick!The emotions I feel are overwhelming and hard
to deal with. I hear someone calling my name. Am  I awake, asleep, daydreaming or going insane? Sometimes it''s hard to tell them
apart. So I wish for sleep,because reality  may be to much for my heart.
My Saviour

A blessing is you all that you are you were there to hold my hand that's
how I made it this far. The only friend that never turned their back
Never a liar you stated the facts. You held me tight at night when no one else was there.I knew you cared.Your word fills me with warmth,with every word that is read. I''m Starving you are my food and  I''m ready to be fed. 
You ease my mind when I need it most of all. When worried or depressed it''s you  that I''m sure to call.  In a alley or a hospital bed you are a healer just like are said.  You showed me the real when there was nothin around fakes. You forgave my sins  as well as my mistakes. At times when I  felt down and like I had nothing else to loose. You stand there with open arms and I coming running right to you.When my heart aches with incredible pain you hold it until the pain fades away. You make me smile you dry my tears. The only person that I fear. I pray to you I repent for my sins. To My Saviour, my father and my friend.

An Absent Father

Dad why did you leave? I  Love you and needed you indeed.
I often wish I could brag on my dad.I guess it's a luxury I never had.
You were a male I respected for so many years. When so many let downs brought so many tears.Searching for a father figure in uncle's and peers.
Or even a boyfriend who seemed near.When all I deserved was you and you weren't there.And never for a minute did I think you didn't care.But you showed me in your own little ways.  Just to see you once a week would have brightened my day.  My mom was reliable though and all I had.She was a good mother but a even better dad.